Oh wow, you poor thing, no wonder you are copping it from all sides.
I was correct in my assumption about the Pluto transit. You've had Pluto messing around with your Neptune for nearly a full two years now. Neptune is a planet that makes us want to "merge" with the universe, if you know what I mean. You've got a very strong Neptunian influence in your birth chart, so this transit is particularly painful for you. Your normal support network is being stripped away, you've probably experienced ( and probably are still experiencing) some severe depression. People with strong Neptunian influences generally have some sort of addiction issue. Neptunian people really feel the pain of the world and escape that in various ways. Be it drugs, alcohol, sex or food, you've probably been trying to take comfort in your addiction, but it's not been terribly effective. As I said in my previous email, it feels like the end of the world as you know it.
The good news, is that this transit will be over by the end of December, so things may not ncessarily be looking up by then, but you should be feeling better about them.
The other transit you've had going at the moment is the Black Moon on your Venus. The Black Moon as a particular point in space that relates to the moon, and deals with deep feminine secrets and issues. You've no doubt been having some deep internal stuff going on over the last few months. This would also relate to your concerns for your mother's well being. I'm sure you love her very much, but judging from your natal chart, she has been causing you pain from probably the moment you were born. Unintentionally of course.
Coming up, Pluto is going to hit your Jupiter - Jupiter is all about fun and good fortune. Emotionally things should be a bit easier than they have been. Your social circle may diminish, and things that currently bring you joy may stop doing so. Hopefully this will be aleviated by the triple teaming of Neptune, Chiron and Jupiter which will be hitting your Sun at about the same time. There will be new things and people coming into your life to help you through this period.
I've been trying to figure out how to say this delicately, but can't seem to find a way. So here it is. Whatever your addiction/pleasure, please be careful with it. The powerful team of Neptune Chiron and Jupiter can indicate suffering from having fun. It had a huge influence on Michael Jackson's chart at the time of his death.
You're going through an incredibly powerful process of transformation. You will be a new, better and stronger you once you come out the other side. It's hard to remember that in the moment. You have people around you who love and care for you, and they will help you through. It will get better.
*sigh* how funny is that...and she didnt even know half of the shit that went down yet she pretty much named it all started two years ago...
I'm gonna come out of this GREAT or dead...
either way it should be an great adventure!
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